Cancer in the Flock
I had heard a news story on NPR about a group of priests molesting as many as 200 deaf boys. Deaf boys. Boys that were very young, and could not properly communicate with people. A non crooked priest(if there is such a thing) went on record saying that the molestations spread quickly and it was like a cancer in the flock. I hope the Vatican burns to the ground someday.
Cell Five
Sometimes people judge others doing things that are alternative and call them crazy. Most of my family, previous employers, and girlfriends think I am crazy. Its not me, you are all a bit nuts. This song is an account of someone taken in to a mental institution and committed. Thinking differently and living differently from everyone else is not such a crazy thing, but sometimes vocalizing your opinions freaks people out. Oh well.
Luke Rhinehart Syndrome
I got recommended a book called “The Dice Man” by Luke Rhinehart. I think it’s a really good book and have tried to apply it to certain areas of my life. Sometimes people get too concerned with regularity and routine and get scared to do anything outside their comfort zone. I have tried with everything in me to take advantage of any situation I am presented whether it be a little outside the norm or not. Just check out the book. Roll the dice. Choose your suicide.
Bookburner
This song is sort of in relation to the one above. I spent a few years living in a routine of working, loving, giving, and being unhappy. Finally I decided to burn that chapter of my life and move on to something better. I spent years writing this book of my life and eventually it was time to burn it all down. The flow of my life and solidarity had been interrupted. Not anymore. My life is a straight line heading into obscurity. I don’t want to share anything with anyone ever again.
Life on Overdraft
Almost everyone I know is in debt of some kind. Student loans, children, trips to the hospital, sudden catastrophic events all reel people in. One day can flip your whole world and all of a sudden you are locked in. Every year, it seems like myself and the people I know are farther in to a hole we didn’t even think existed. If I had any faith in healthcare or our government taking care of us when we are old I wouldn’t mind, but I don’t. So it’s time to be self reliant and stop the headaches.
The Watcher
There was an old ghost story I heard while visiting Scotland. It was about a ghost living in the South Bridge vaults under the city of Edinburgh. I went there in the hopes to find him. It was an interesting place, but I didn’t seem to find any ghosts. I did however find the power of fear in the human mind. So the song has double meanings and he knows about the both of them.
White Light
I have battled depression and evil thoughts my whole life. I know people who were prescribed anti depressants and I always thought about taking them. It just seemed to make them more disconnected than they already were, so it turned me off. Eventually I found you can self medicate and tried that route. It magnified the feelings I had tenfold. I put a stop to that very quickly. Now I live in a conscious state of discontent. I know I could feel better if I took some drugs, but I don’t. Instead I make it take the wheel of my mind and drive my interests and activities. To submit to complacency and self medication is truly suicide. Instead I roll with it and hope I stay on the path.
Resisted Incubation
This song was written in a state of anger. Realizing I often hold grudges on anyone and anything. Your family and friends can tell you everything will be fine. “That’s just life, deal with it”. Some people choose to attack those problems in life instead of just dealing with them. I let my problems consume me until I figure out the best way to destroy them. That’s the only way to get anything done. And the title? I was born underdeveloped and had to live in an incubator for a while. I never want to live my life incubated from the real world ever again.
Seafarer
I love traveling by any means necessary. Touring and road trips, sleeping on floors, no sleep, pushing yourself to do things. I am happiest when moving, in a car, on an airplane or train. The road and all its unpredictability’s make people stronger when you have to deal with it. This goes beyond being in a band. Just any kind of travel or progressive hard work. I make myself leave town a few times per year. I have to keep myself sane. It is on these trips where I get a look into other peoples lives and sometimes realize what I need in my own. I made a decision with myself a long time ago to only work jobs as long they are interesting and only to be saving money for the next thing. I am always on the lookout for the next thing. The song title and some select lines were stolen from an old Norse poem. I also made my friend sing them because her voice is far prettier than mine.